Saturday, March 19, 2016
If I feel that Life is the fulfillment of well made plans and calculations made before Time was invented, am I also just living Life on but another of Life's rigid planes? Certainly, the science Humanity has come up with to explain things could indicate that some blueprint was at least consulted before the Big Bang or the 6 day fabrication by God. There is just too much logic and math in the physical construction of what we call Existence for me to believe that what we have here is an accidental confluence of atomic collisions.
Who is right?
Over the years I have considered various takes on Existence, Humanity and the Cosmos. As a child I was indoctrinated with the comfortable and accepted explanations of the Judaeo-Christian world I was born into. Fantasies were constructed to fill me with shock and awe about vengeful Gods, and where I would end up if I dared to cross them. I soon realized that what was wanted of me was to believe myths as truth and turn me into an obedient servant of the culture that surrounded me. Enlightenment was possibly a perk, but not the first order of business.
I wanted to believe in God. An all caring and forgiving God. The more I became aware of the events unfolding around me, both near and far, it seemed that God was not all that caring. Forgiveness was not even part of their plan. We were left to our own devices and how we existed would only matter to us and not God. "I planted the garden. Now you are on your own". And Creator moved on to the next project on the to do list.
I tried to embrace the idea of Atheism and just could not do it. They have their points, but again I feel there is just too much order in the nuts and bolts of the Universe to dismiss it all as an accident. Atheists are like fundamental religion folks. Their narrow focus on a Universe larger than our imaginations dismisses too many potentialities and possibilities. I came to the conclusion sometime in my 20's that because there were so many what if's available to my meager mind, conventional organized religion and current Atheistic slants were only a few of the infinite number of possible explanations for Existence.
I sought and am still seeking my own explanation for the reason we even exist. Some days I wonder if it is not part of some grand plan. Other days I am sure we are the result of doodling on a page far out in the Cosmos and then tossed in the recycle bin awaiting shredding. But most days, I don't give Existence a thought. I rely on Descartes to dismiss and apologize my shallow thinking....
....... I think, therefore I am. The rest is all Bullshit.
My apologies to Rene and anyone else for reading between his lines.
Keep it 'tween the ditches ............................................