A message from the Past for Israel and the USA.
Sunday, June 22, 2025
We Become the Grave Diggers ...... Again
Sunday, June 15, 2025
Soul Never Dies
Don't let your rose colored glasses stop you from looking for new joy like you had "back in the day".
Don't get me wrong. The music of my youth will always be my favorite. The songs I grew up with, the songs I nervously danced to with nervous girls at teen clubs and the music I hauled for several years all over North America, ..........
Well, that was then, this is now. Now I am still searching and still finding music that moves me like it did before.
So, in line with Music having soul or not, I would like to offer up these two You Tube videos. Both are covers of the music many of us still hold close to our hearts. Both are performed by youngsters still wet behind their years. Hope you enjoy them.
First up are The Graystones with the their cover of "The Logical Song", recorded in 1978 or was it 1979 by Supertramp. These kids punch way over their weight class, especially the sax player.
The second tune is from a family band, Missioned Souls and their cover of "Highway Star, by Deep Purple". Enjoy.
All this points out that "Soul" never dies. It never leaves. If we do things right, we pass it on.
Keep it tween the ditches ...................................
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Friday, June 13, 2025
US Route 1
Tomorrow we protest. Tomorrow we park our asses on US Route 1 in Wells, Maine. We will have signs and cowbells. We won't be there long, but there we will be.
Hopefully our token participation will add to the overall disgust a majority of Americans seem to have for Trump, the GOP Congress, and all the slithering slimy little weasels who make up his Administration. It is sad to see them take so much pleasure in their efforts to destroy what took so many years to create.
My job today is to cut up some cardboard for the signs, locate and fabricate sign holders, and find the spray adhesive I used for something awhile back.
We debated for a few weeks about whether we should go or not; both of us in different conversations vacillated from yea to nay and back again. Well, this morning BA came in the kitchen and told me she was going. Was I coming also?
45 years of marriage has created a pecking order, a quiver of intractable tendencies, points of view and most of all, a variety of looks and stares that tell both of us, no discussion is needed because discussion will not happen.
I wanted to be snarky and say out loud, "Yes Dear", with an appropriate snarky look pasted on my face. Her look warned me not to. This was serious..... She is right; it is nothing to make light of. Still, it is damn hard to go against my nature.
"Okay, how big do you want the cardboard, and do we want sticks or are we going commando?"
Our local protest here in southern Maine is only set up for a hour or so. It has a perfect location; a location filled with a slow moving captive audience.... the annual summer log jam on Route 1in Maine. Tomorrow, the punishment the folks from away will have to endure will be intensified as they travel anywhere on Route 1. There are protests spread all along Route 1, north and south.
Of course I have also been ordered to consider what we might put on the signs; Maybe show support for the recent "No Kings" series of protests going down across the country. I suggested, "DHS - The New Gestapo". Not sure how BA took it. That usually means no, she was not a fan.
So, tomorrow my wife and I join millions of people across this country to show our anger and ask for some sanity from Trump and his newly formed Gestapo, the DHS. My big hope is that the protests will be so massive, so spread out, that no lying sycophant's can ignore the fact that no, the idiots are not in charge. They just think they are.
I hope the apathetic rise up and at least pay attention and maybe decide to join the fight with the unthinkable stupidity that has our nation by its short hairs.
Anyway, BA and I will be in Wells in the early afternoon tomorrow with signs and ringing cowbells.
No matter how useless resistance may feel, besides our vote, it is all we have.
Keep it 'tween the ditches .....................................
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The logical and ever so pertinent song to include here was not going to be my choice. It was too predictable. "For What It's Worth" was recorded by Buffalo Springfield in the 1960s to bring more awareness to the civil upheavel that was so prevalent back then. It is a great, great song. Powerful without preaching.
So as I began to rationalize why I did not want to include it, I realize I had to. I remember playing this song often when a protest was coming up in DC or on campus in the early 1970s. Traditions don't mean much to me. But this one does.
Thursday, June 12, 2025
Another Life Lesson Ignored
After so many years on the planet, I still have trouble paying attention to some Life Lessons. Hydration is one of them. I try to be good and keep pounding down the water, but sometimes like yesterday, I totally ignored water and all it could do for me if I just took a drink once in awhile.
But that's what cramps are for I guess; to remind me in an instant of agonizing wakefulness of how repetitively stupid I was.
"You dumb ass, you did not drink enough water yesterday and now look at your sorry ass self; your face all twisted up, your legs locked, toes locked, and what's worse you had been enjoying a really really cool dream."
My brain snorted derisively and finished, "Might as well get up asshole, you ain't sleeping comfortable anymore this night."
I rush to the kitchen knowing that sucking down water now will have no immediate effect on the cramps. This evil cycle will have to play itself out. "But definitely take a drink dimwit, the water will eventually ease your pain.... sometime tomorrow". I could hear my mind chortling in the background.
I had to chuckle as I re-read this. Some nights were not meant to sleep through I guess, fun dreams or not.
You may return to your regularly scheduled program now...................................
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What kind of music would dovetail with the whiny little rant above?
I opened up YouTube Premium and there was a suggested tune for me. It was Anita Hardcok's Banned 1940s song, "It Isn't Gonna Eat Itself". Reading the words "Banned", I was curious how low the bar was for a tune from the 1940s to be struck from the airwaves. So I played it.
Let's just say, if one of those 1990s Parental Advisory tags were available in the 1940s, this song would most likely have more than one. It's Crude. It's Rude. And I love it. Maybe the Good Ole Days really were the Good Ole Days after all.
The eighth grade me would have loved this song. Hell, the 73 year old me agrees.
Tuesday, June 10, 2025
Cortisone
Flash forward to my burgeoning Old Fart career in the present. I have enjoyed overwhelming pain in my knees for at least the last 5 years. At first I thought I could tough it out. After all, toughing it out had a damn good track record. Ignore it and eventually it will go away.
That was before I had accepted being an old man who now realizes that any new pains are likely to move in for the duration and if I am really lucky , they will drag along some of their distant pain relatives to move in also. I accept now, there is pain and discomfort that is most likely payment extracted by my body for taking it for granted for so many years.
I was called into my doctor's office a couple of weeks ago. He was concerned about a blood test I had just had. I went in for the meet. He told I had tested positive for Hepatitis B. He quizzed me hard. Had I been engaging in dangerous behaviors with drugs or , Gasp, sexually? I assured him I had not. But being a smart ass, I said something to effect of , "Well, I saw a monkey the other day that I knew wanted me. And I almost caved. But no Doc, we did not hook up. My wife frowns on that behavior. I always come home with banana breath."
The look on his face was hard to read. He ignored my pitiful play for some humor and said, "Well, it must be a false positive then, The only way to tell is to order up another blood test, but a test specific to Hepatitis, and not a general wider range generic blood test."
I said okay and then asked, "Are we Done?" His only interest at that point seemed to see me out the door. Then he asked, " Any other issue, complaints, questions?"
It was a generic covering bases kind of question. I looked at him. "Yeah , my knees. They are driving me bonkers. I don't walk anymore if I can sit and even sitting hurts".
The Doc asked me to walk down the hall, turn around and return. I did my best, but it was more of a gimpy limp than a walk. He reckoned it was finally time for me to see an orthopedist and why hadn't I taken his advice the first time he mentioned it 2 years ago? I had no good answer. I just glared at him and mumbled, "Yeah I was a bonehead, but if all he wants to do is cut into me, I'm outta there."
Doctor A didn't say anything. He looked at my chart on his computer screen. He then told me he had not even brought up knee replacement, he just wanted me to see an orthopedist, nothing else. He followed up with, "It looks like you may have bone on bone arthritis. Cortisone shots might help. If nothing else, I am scheduling X-rays and once that is done, someone will contact you. ...... Now, get out of my office.
He smiled. I smiled. I left.
On the way home, my attention was taken up by the positive result for Hep B blood test. I stopped thinking of x-rays and bone doctors. A day or so later, I received a text setting up the X-rays for my knees. I soon had an appointment on the following Friday with an Orthopedist over to Saco, about an hour away.
The next Friday, I found the Orthopedic offices in a industrial park behind a scrape yard in Saco, Maine. Not the usual medical office set up. When I went in, there was no one in the waiting room. I signed in, sat down, and cursed myself because I had not brought my phone in ....Before I could finish chastising myself, a nurse type woman dressed in appropriate nurse type garb asked me to follow her.
I had spoken with the Orthopedist as he poked my knees and looked at my X-rays. He agreed with Dr. A's diagnosis and asked what I wanted to do. It was indeed bone on bone arthritis. He advised cortisone shots in the beginning with some Physical Therapy. He never mentioned knee replacement. I nodded and said let's try it. His assistant already had 2 syringes ready and waiting. Bing Bang Boom, before I could catch my breath he was finishing applying the 2nd band aid. He shook my hand and left the room. The whole visit lasted less than 10 minutes when I found myself outside walking , not gimping back to my car.
What just happened?
The shots were not painful, not really. I barely noticed them. This happened last Friday. I have been almost totally pain free since. I have gone for a walk, worked in the yard, and shook my money maker to a Youtube playlist while I cleaned up the kitchen.
Just when I have decided the Medical Industry is only good for picking my pocket, something comes along that makes me eat crow.
Maybe now I can stay ahead of the pain by not being so sedentary. Maybe even attempt riding my bikes. Nothing would make me happier.
Keep it 'tween the ditches ...............................
* AND a BIG BTW - the original positive test for Hep B was indeed a False Positive. Hallelujah !
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I figured the song I danced to in the kitchen would be an appropriate symbol of how much better my knees feel now.
Here is Gangsta Grass, a group who really can't be pigeonholed cleanly. Please enjoy "Nickel and Dime Blues". Play it loud and don't try to ignore the urge to tap your feet or even better, do some shit kicking, heels up dancing wherever you might happen to be.
Monday, June 09, 2025
P Street Beach & My Summer of Deep Regrets
Saturday, June 07, 2025
An Empty Mind
Yeah, makes me want to consider whatever may be on my mind.
What happens is I often write in time
Looking for the rhyme
Not the reason or why
Inspirations may pass me by
I just wave and say good bye
There's another thought somewhere waiting
For me to run to ground.
Yeah, it is fun to listen to a tune with an empty mind
Like I have all the time to waste
On notions sublime and hard to find.
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Written while listening to several repeats of "One Thousand Words", by The Avett Brothers.
Love this song.
Friday, June 06, 2025
Bullying is Never Okay
It was a mistake. ........... Maybe calling it a mistake is a tad strong. Call what happened as unforeseen, unpredicted; just something I found while looking for something else.
It matters little how I got here. It wasn't the trip, it's where I ended up. But I guess I need to share.
This is a backwards post today. My normal blogging process, flipped upside down. First, I found the tune. Next, I am creating a post that might only work as a background or sidekick, or maybe just end up something I added for no apparent or coherent reason.
I really fucked with my process. Before I had written a word, I found a selfie I considered pertinent and messed with it, giving that image a point, a focus, a reason for being included.
To top it all off, I apparently decided to make little sense with as many words as I could muster. I'm over fifty words into today's nonsense, and the words have not offered even a small clue what this post is about.
The images might help. They might even do the job I came to do without any need to punish anyone with words. So, I am debating if I should just let the images and the tune make my point; use the words as background decorations, black and white noise that can be read with no need to be understood. Or do I toss them out completely?
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I developed many defensive tactics against the bullying and the struggle to fit in as fast as possible. Being athletic opened the doors sooner. Standing up to the biggest bully in school often worked. But being smart and a library nerd was not the path to acceptance without taunts. I hated running into classmates at the libraries I often spent time in. News of my fall from grace always made it to the one asshole I didn't want to deal with. I even wrote a fictional piece about my run ins at libraries. It is called "My Oubliette". It was a flash fiction piece written as part of a weekly writing challenge.
For a very brief period I decided that being a bully was the way to find popularity. I was never a good bully. I just didn't have the nasty temperament needed to pull it off. I felt more comfortable fighting the bullies, embarrassing them and sometimes, when confronted by more than one, running.
It wasn't until I went to Charlotte Hall Military Academy that I embraced the bully life style. Hazing (the PC name for Bullying)...
Bullying was an integral part of the life at the school. Everyone was bullied at some point, usually in their first year. Those K-dets who didn't smarten up and join in the fun often became targets as long as they were there.
I put up with it my first year. I had no choice. My junior year though was a different matter. I occasionally joined in on the Hazing/Bullying, but more often than not I stepped around it and concentrated on defending myself from the residual taunting from my first year. A few fights and I had moved up the Apex ladder. I was mostly left alone from then on. But I would be lying if I claimed I never bullied anyone. And I won't argue the point that because hazing was everywhere, it was okay.
Bullying is never okay.
Keep it tween the ditches .................................
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Like I mentioned at the start of this post, I found the song for it before I had even considered what to write. I felt this song deserved my attention. I had never heard of Gaz Brookfield. "Be a Bigger Man", a song about bullying is excellent. I experienced both sides of Bullying. I have no shame, just regrets that for that short period I became that which I detested.
Thursday, June 05, 2025
Yertle the Turtle
Like many rug rats, I was read to by parents and my older brothers. I grew up surrounded by books, child and adult. The two books I remember the most from those early years was The Little Engine that Could and Yertle the Turtle, by Dr. Seuss. The Cat in the Hat was right up there also, but not like "Little Engine" or "Yertle the Turtle".
My mom told me when I picked the bedtime story as a little tacker who had yet to read on his own, it was usually "Little Engine" or "Yertle". It seems odd that now, some 70 years later, I notice that both books emphasize two of my most deeply embedded character pluses or minuses. The Little Engine That Could was about tenacity and never giving up. Yertle the Turtle was about power and how it corrupts.
The book was banned in several panty bunching locales for being "too Political".
"Yertle the Turtle, a children's story by Dr. Seuss, is more than just a whimsical tale. It's a potent allegory exploring themes of power, ambition, and the dangers of unchecked authority."Tuesday, June 03, 2025
The Rank and File
At some point, continuing to act stupid does not stir up the empathy it used to. At some point, it is time to recognize what the Rank and File of the Right is. The Rank and File willingly followed their leaders down the self serving garden path their leadership laid out for them. They are just as guilty as their slimy swamp dwelling leaders; maybe more so.
The Rank and File of the Right have chosen to be evil, inconsiderate, immoral total assholes who are rubberstamping the unconscionable self serving policies their swamp dwelling leaders are using to ruin the Democratic Republic we have all taken for granted for so many years.
The leaders of the right now own 40 or so percent of America's citizenry. Now, they are coming for the rest of us. They no longer care how their tactics are perceived. The meaning of "Unconstitutional" no longer means anything to the Right. The factual truth of everything no longer matters. They double down on their lies and then spew even uglier and terrible new lies that continually cause many people great harm while they sit back in the delusions they are doing good for America.
The Right is a pox on our nation at the moment. Anyone who supports them is a carrier.
Later Gators .....................................
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Music, music, music.
When I decided to pick a tune for every post, I really did not appreciate how much extra time and effort it added to putting a new blog post out there in the Internet Ether. I have whined about this before; all the while, not recognizing the benefits of the search and sometimes, drudgery of finding a song.
This morning, in this moment, I now understand how much the search for music for every post has expanded my musical horizons. I had been in danger of another classic Old Fart tendency; stop looking and settling into a soft withdrawal from the busy world outside. After all, there is nothing new under the Sun; not really.
Finding music has done more than just expanding my musical quiver, my efforts have reminded me there is always something new under the Sun. I just need to look for it.
Here is a Thrash Metal tune, "We are One", by Vigilante. Thrash Metal has its place in the musical lineups. Certainly a niche category in the larger category we call Heavy Metal. Thrash depends on creating music that attacks our senses. Enjoy or not.
Sunday, June 01, 2025
What's Always Around the Corner
Captain Stremba was an odd man. One of the best teachers I ever had. I am not sure why he and his odd way of looking at things stuck with me. I know now though, that that simple quote written in my yearbook affected my world view dramatically from that point forward.
The quote made sense in 1969. America was at war with itself, in a hot war in another nation, a cold war with another, and working hard to kill Mother Nature. We were only just beginning to understand the ramifications of our actions, which prior to the 1960s America seemed to be clueless and ignorant of what it was doing to itself and others. In that respect, America is still trying to destroy itself, only now our self destructive tendencies are more transparent; not so hidden as they used to be.
Captain Stremba's thoughts on what he saw coming surprised me at the time. But I was still wet behind the ears really, even though I was sure I knew it all. It was not until I had been beaten up some and disappointed some during the ensuing years, did the real meaning of what he meant dawn on me. There are all types of degeneration floating around us all the time; personal; cultural, political, and spiritual.
It was one night when I was asleep on the floor in the lock up in Oakland County, Michigan that I woke up suddenly with that quote in my mind. It was then I began to really address my own personal degeneration. Within 3 years I was "sitting up straight and flying right" as my mom used to warn me before the shit really hit the fan.
The cultural degeneration Captain Stremba referred to continued, only in a different lane. Degeneration or Decay, if you will, is always in gear. It surrounds us, eats at our ideals and given a chance will toss us into periods of deep despair and crippling ruin. It may change it's focus, but without due diligence on our parts, it will take over and kick us to the curb. So far, we have somehow managed to survive the worst of it. But don't be fooled. Degeneration is insidious and ever present, waiting patiently for Humans to stop keeping Watch.
Be wary of every corner you encounter. ........... Especially now. It is as bad as I have ever seen it. No period in my life is more primed to blow up in our faces.
Later ................................................
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I wasn't going to include a Metal tune for this post. Then I ran across "Degenerate", by Starset. The visuals of the video seem to fit nicely with the sentiments of my post.
But first, please listen to "Hi Ren", by Ren Hill, a very talented Welsh musician who has dealt with personal demons for a long time. His talent is awesome, truly awesome.
Sunday, May 18, 2025
Just the Beginning
My renewed interest is not so much for the physical experience but for the spiritual experience. I want an experience that will once again help me find some footing in a world I am positive is losing control of itself.
I don't know if circling back to the world of psychedelics will bring me some peace. I do know Religion won't do it. That avenue closed for me over 50 years ago. But what really has gotten me fired up is the whole culture that has grown up around Fungi and its relationship to the Human experience.The 4th Annual Maine Fungi Fest is happening at the end of this month. It is only an hour away. I figured I would go and check it out. It is a 3 day event. I assume Saturday will be the big day. I am not going so I can get high. I want information and connections to help me learn more about fungi, the trippin kind and the other kinds, edible and medicinal. What I have learned so far is nothing but a tease. I want some real interactions with folks who have some expertise, not just loose dog experiences like I have had so far.
Keep it 'tween the ditches ....................................
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I am breaking one of my own hard line rules here. The song, "Journey to the Center of the Mind" was a 1968 song that rocked every teen club from coast to coast. The Amboy Dukes were only around for a brief time. It is understandable then I had no clue who was in it or what one of them might turn into 50 years later. Seems Ted Nugent was their lead guitarist. I vowed many years ago before Ted became the Winger Asshole he is today, that I would never own or play any of his music.
Contrary to popular belief about rock and roll stars of the 1970's, most of them did not actively go after underage girls. Sure it happened, but no where to the degree the myth has created. When I was driving rock and roll bands around though, Ted Nugent had very bad rep for bedding underage girls. When he released, "Jail Bait", in 1981 though, that was when I was done with him. He was a mediocre talent with the reputation for being a class A asshole.
Anyway, rules are meant to be broken I guess. Offering up this tune is proof.
Wednesday, May 14, 2025
Mushrooms Don't Wait.
The batch of Psilocybin mushrooms near the septic tank looked beautiful yesterday. Today, they looked like their moment in the Sun was over. The gills must have dropped all their spores. They looked so bad, I picked the ones that were left.
Now I have set up a jury rigged dryer in the basement and I'm hoping to dry them for storing. If it works, great. We will see.
The other thing I am planning is to set up a grow environment for the batch I picked a short while ago. I have barely a clue how to do it; call it just a sniff of a hint. But it is either toss the rooting material that came up with the Shrooms I yanked or give it a try to see if I can grow them. It would be a major triumph if I was able to make that happen.
Apparently the Shrooms I have in the yard love wood chips. When the septic guy filled over the new leach field, he hauled in a a few dozen railroad cars of chips, so I have wood chips. ....... Uh, okay, okay; it wasn't railroad carloads, it just seems like it.
I also have some wonderful leftover high end soil from my days of growing pot. I will mix it with some wood chips and plant the mycelium (the root system of mushrooms) that was stuck to the Shrooms I yanked.- My jury rigged hydrator worked beautifully. The first batch I put in took 4 hours, but it is bone dry and ready to store.
- I decided to pick the rest of the Shrooms out in the yard because of the condition of the ones I picked this morning. One batch had been hit by a critter. Only stems and a few buttons left. I took them. Then I cleaned out the remaining batch.
- Apparently, the best time to pick them is when you see them. Don't dawdle.
My next task is to create the mushroom growing environment. I have an idea of what I am going to do. I will keep you posted.
Keep it 'tween the ditches ....................................
All this recent focus on mushrooms leaves me no choice but to play a song I have been avoiding. Why was I avoiding it? I guess it was because the choice is too logical, too convenient. It's the first song many of my Boomer contemporaries would pick if they were writing about consuming Magic Mushrooms. ........ I have resisted long enough.
But which version should I pick? The original I danced to at Teen Club back when acne was my biggest problem? Or a newer version, a cover by talented musicians in a completely different genre.
Monday, May 12, 2025
2nd Trial
Two days ago I threw caution to the winds and ate two small mushrooms. I definitely felt the changes they made in my mind and body. Very mild high with zip for negative consequences.
Then this morning ....... Actually, just over an hour ago, I ate some different mushrooms that were growing near the septic tank. They were large, more robust Shrooms. I ate 16 grams; 3 fresh ones. And yes, I am feeling the results. A tad more intense than the other day but not crippling ......yet. I do not expect to be comatose or turn into a drooler. Shrooms have never really had that kind of impact on me. ........ Well, there was one time on a mountain bike camping trip up country Maine back in the early-ish 1990s. We ate Shrooms; got lost in the woods at night and stumbled around until dawn. I might have eaten more than I should have that night. Had a blast though.
Just a short note about my new adventure - locating and harvesting wild Psilocybin mushrooms. Apparently, they are everywhere if you know where to look. And finally I have a clue where to look. This discovery could make for a fun and interesting summer.
Later Gators, I have a trip I have to take ...............................
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Music today will have nothing to do with anything on purpose or for that matter, not on purpose. My mind is crammed now with dealing with the enhanced senses of a Psilocybin influence. I have headphones on and am listening to "Misc. Playlist #1". There is no rhyme, no reason no sensible flow to any of my "Misc" playlists So when I felt like it is time, I will pick a song with no attempt to tie it to this post. After all, this post is nonsense and I take pride in that fact.
Y'all have a super day now. I know I will.
I scrolled ahead on this playlist. I noticed first of all, I was going to have trouble picking a tune. There are just too many good tunes .... and then I came to Broken Peach's cover of "Tainted Love".
Best enjoyed loud with a full screen video. Zombie chicks in nursing outfits. It just doesn't get any Hotter than that. But first, I have to start off with another cover. This time it's an excellent Bluegrass / Country cover of an old Buffalo Springfield tune, "For what its worth" .............. It's a two-fer post..... Just excellent.
Sunday, May 11, 2025
Discovering Gold
But this is not a "Woe is Me" post. No it isn't. It's a celebration of sorts.
When I retired I decided I was pretty much done traveling. The current events of the planet these last 5 years just reinforced that feeling. The world beyond my local yokel borders was off its rocker, gone berserk; was now just a wasteland of hate and discontent.
I looked inward. I looked in my pockets. I gazed over the lakes and a few times to the horizon at the far end of the visible ocean but a short drive from my home. Why the Fuck would I want to go anywhere?
I used to go everywhere. Been there and done that. Don't need it now. Definitely don't need to see how deep a hole my country has dug for itself. These are my "Golden Years". There's plenty of Gold right here for me to discover. Yesterday, I discovered some of that gold I just knew was hanging out nearby or just down the road.
Because retirement freed up space in my brain to fill back up again, I filled it with moments remembering the misdeeds and the fewer better deeds from my past. My psychedelic years were definitely go-to moments for me to attempt to remember. I tripped so much back in the day, specific memories come back as snippets and glances of those times; often combining the highlights of several trips into one memory. One trip ran into the next one which continued into the next one, etc, etc, etcetera. Yeah, Snake's and my purchase of 500 hits of Purple Micro-Dot acid turned into many lost moments that summer; that summer of 1970.
Dredging up ancient LSD trips got me to thinking. Caused me to consider again, how much I would love to trip again. I always liked it, even when the circumstances were not ideal.I wondered though. Had I acquired too much caution as I became an old man to take the chance again? ...... uhm, NAH... Any concern I might have entertained was lost as soon as it crossed my mind.
I determined that some way, some how, I would score some psychedelics; LSD, Peyote, Shrooms; didn't matter. I wanted to see trails again. I wanted to see the ground ripple, walls breath, watch my face melt in any nearby mirror, but most of all, find the words in my mind scrawled on sidewalks and church doors. Being retired seemed the perfect time to revisit this long past part of my life before I became too careful.
Instead of trying to chase down a local connect for what I wanted, I began to intermittently look into growing mushrooms in the basement or wherever it was that mushrooms would grow. Online, there are too many choices for information, grow kits, spore connections and guides on how to find it in the wild. Like everything online, the results of a google search can boggle the mind.
Based on the writings of a world renowned Psilocybe expert, Alan Rockefeller, I began to closely inspect the mushrooms I came upon in the local woods and in my own yard. Two years ago, we had our septic tank and leach field replaced. The fill used to cover it was less than I expected. There were noticeable chunks of asphalt, gravel, and wood chips mixed together, passing for the finish layer. Two years later, the grass seeds the septic guy tossed around are still trying to take hold.Last year while I was out with Maggie, I noticed some mushrooms growing out of that shitty top layer he called topsoil. The mushrooms looked familiar. I had seen them before. Were they Psilocybin mushrooms? Or were they trouble if they found their way into my gulliwots? I thought about it overnight. In the morning I was determined to try one or two. When I went to the spot, some critter had beaten me to it. I was pissed, but I thought maybe that critter saved me a trip to the local clinic........
Yesterday. intermittent showers and 40 degree temps made outside an unpleasant experience. But I went out anyway because I had remembered those mushrooms from last year. .... and now I had images to compare with.
At the same spot, there was a new batch popping up through the chips/ gravel mix. They looked like they were trippin Shrooms for sure. They did not look fully grown yet, their caps hadn't spread open into a proper mushroom look yet.
From the information I had gathered, I also had some good clues on whether this mushroom was not just a Psilocybin mushroom, but most important, was it safe to eat.
- If it smells earthy like fresh mushrooms at the store smell, well, that's a good sign.
- If the gills are white - not necessarily a good sign.
- Then there was the taste test, a very scientific way created on Tik Tok I think. The idea was to let your mouth decide whether a mushroom was okay to ingest. I am sure other more knowledgeable Mycologists than some clown on Tik Tok might shake the heads, but since I can be clownish on occasion, the taste test method seemed logical as long as the tester understood the possibility of consequences they might not like.
- If you got sick within the first 2 hours, that was better than getting sick after 6 hours.
My primary concern after I came down was will I wake up in the morning? Or even go to sleep tonight. Nothing like taking a foolish risk to find out how important living is. I can't say I was feeling fearful, anxious or uptight. Sometimes in order to feel alive, one has to threaten one's existence, even if it ends up an empty threat.
It appears I came through in decent condition. And now I have a small crop of Psilocybin mushrooms to collect, dry and hold onto for that moment I feel I need to "Trip the Light Fantastic".
Keep it 'tween the Ditches .........................
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One of my favorite tunes to listen to while tripping back in my younger days was "The End", by the Doors. If I was getting hyper or antsy, this song always calmed me down.
Enjoy ............................
Thursday, May 08, 2025
VE Day
I could go anywhere with that opening; the politics, the debt owed by Europe, the absolute class act that the Marshall plan was ...... But I won't. This is about my father.
As he related his experiences to me, he did not get to Europe in time to witness the signing of the armistice. Like I mentioned, he was on a plane at the time. But he did spend the next 4 years as one of the cogs that made the Marshall Plan a success. He toured Auschwitz only a week or so after he landed. He was taken off his detail as a budget officer helping to finance the recovery and loaned to the prosecution team at Nuremburg. He traveled all over Europe to assess the costs of resurrecting various areas as much as possible to their previous splendor. He knew what he was looking at and what it looked like before the war. He had spent 4 summers in college as a European tour guide for American tourists in the late 1920s.My father was a stoic, stiff upper lip kinda guy. I was somewhat taken aback when he told me he cried the first time he saw what the war had done to Europe. He took many pictures of the damage, but only rarely did he pull them out to look at them. I discovered them after his death when I was nosing around in the many boxes of slides, photos and photography equipment he left in the attic. I have yet to transfer them to a digital record.
His post war experiences he said were probably the best and worst times of his life. Everyday he had to deal with one type of post war damage or another. But he also found love and married a WAC he met. Sadly the marriage did not last as she was killed. I am not sure how she died. All I know is she died. He never talked about it.
The front page to the right is from the defunct Baltimore newspaper, the "Baltimore News-Post". I found it under a trashed linoleum floor in a factory worker house I lived in in Mt. Washington, a neighborhood in Baltimore. The house was perfect for two, just out of college guys. It had a yard and it was cheap.... Dirt cheap.What makes the page unique is the color standard at the top and the unusual height of the Headline letters. That was some high tech shit back in those days. But what the page symbolizes is just how invested the planet had been in World War ll. Everything stopped worldwide for 4 plus years while countries from every corner of the globe lined up in factions and then proceeded to try to destroy each other. The Axis powers and the Allies. The Allies fought the Axis countries on two fronts, the Japanese in Asia and the Germans and Italy in Europe and northern Africa.
It was about this time 100 years ago that the World started warming up for another war. The first World War had ended badly for Germany. The treaty they were forced to eat was rather draconian. Many Germans wanted revenge. In 1923 Adolf Hitler and some 2000 malcontents marched into the city of Berlin hoping to overthrow the government. They failed. Adolf was awarded a 5 year jail sentence, thrown in jail where he wrote that wonderful Project 2025, ...uh, I mean "Mein Kampf", the workbook he would use that eventually put him on top of the world for a few years. The real World War ll began with a whimper in the 1920's and ended with world wide conflagrations and millions dead by 1945. The planet had never experienced anything like it before or since..........
So, I would say that this V-E day packs warnings and possible dire predictions of similar fates if we don't stop fucking around. The evil cycle of 100 years is looking for a repeat performance and so far, we seem to be welcoming it back.
There is no such thing as overreacting when History is not just threatening to repeat itself, it has begun the process.
Later ......................................
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An appropriate tune for this post would be a song that was popular during WWll. My mom loved this song. It made her cry every time she heard it. Maybe it was because her first husband, a Navy Commander, died during the War. It is also the song Stanley Kubrick chose to close his second greatest movie, "Dr. Strangelove". As the nukes go off destroying the world, this song kicks in. Perfect.
Here is "We'll Meet Again", by Vera Lynn,, released in 1943.