Sunday, July 22, 2018

A Few Degrees Shy of Tipping Over

You might think this is just another "Godammit I'm getting old" post.  And you would be right.  It is sort of.

30 years ago I vowed to quit smoking tobacco.  Sometime around this past Christmas I finally succeeded.  Unfortunate timing maybe, but I also developed some debilitating health issues  around the same time.  I became so weak, just standing up gave me better rushes than a hit of killer weed.  Walking the dog became brief moments outback only a few steps away from the door.  My best days were spent but a few degrees shy of tipping over.

This went on until, uh, ... I guess I turned a corner a couple of weeks ago. 

I'm actually walking the dog over to Mary's Park across Sam Page Road now. I'm not tearing it up but I am feeling better for sure now having bagged three consecutive 1/2 mile loops.  Ten days ago, I could not walk 100 yards without stopping. 

I'd say I am back, but well, now days, I need to be careful how much I promise myself.  I guess I am just grateful for how much I have bounced back now.  I will keep pushing even though it is so easy to give in.  This is a painful comeback, as painful as anything I have ever experienced.

The true silver lining though is it has been approximately seven months since I rolled a cigarette.

Keep it 'tween the ditches .......................................


jadedj said...

Good for you!

I've been off the damned things for 16 years now...after 40 years...a pack a day, and sometimes two. I had seriously tried 4 or 5 times...quitting once for almost a year. The last attempt, I told myself I would smoke one if I just couldn't stand it. I took one hour at a time and I think allowing myself that option helped. I never smoked another one. It's hard to believe that I was ever even a smoker. You will never regret stopping.

Ol'Buzzard said...

Didn't realize you had health problems. Quitting smoking is not easy. My wife and I quit cold turkey a number of years ago. We found it was the habit that was hard to break - like what do you do after a meal or after sex. It feels like something is missing when you first quit but eventually it gets easier.
Good luck
the Ol'Buzzard

The Blog Fodder said...

So sorry to hear of your health problems. The kind if debilitating weakness you describe is so discouraging especially when you have spent an active life. Thoughts and prayers for your continued recovery. Sorry, couldn't resist. Evil of me I know. Keep getting stronger!

Anonymous said...

Really surprised to read about your health issues. Glad you are starting to feel better. Quitting smoking is a really good thing. Sometimes I can hardly remember when I smoked at all, and that's because it's been more than 40 years since I quit. Keep walking the dog and stay steady on your feet. Take care there.

PipeTobacco said...

Wow Mike, I am surprised about your illness.... do you have any idea what brought it about? Is it mostly a lack of energy or more (like balance?)? With your long history of biking.... is that workable at the moment?

You quit tobacco a month or two before me (mine was February 14th). I still miss my pipes a helluva lot at times, but it is not *as* strong as it initially was.

I am glad that it sounds like you are getting stronger again.


Kulkuri said...

After 20 years you forget about having a cigarette. I quit about 21 years ago after many attempts.

BBC said...

Good for you, carry on...